~dAiSy deFiEs DiStaNcE iN a DreAm~ Hot pink sweater Daisy in the center Strawberry lip-gloss Disguises all my loss Paint a pretty picture Scribble out some scripture Going out for dinner Im tonights big winner Only in a dream The man from my screen Hes reciting poetry I'm happy, can he see? His hand across the table Healing scars, hes so able An eye meets an eye In a dream we can defy 2200 miles lie between Becoming nothing but a dream Can he feel where Ive been? Does he hear my scream? R.E.M. traveled 40 hours and 1 minute I close my eyes trying Seeking to fall back in it ~Emptiness~ Maybe life is this This is all there is Is this? 'its not and you know it' I didnt think so Cause theres Always something Something more I seem to always miss Well maybe more More than what is Is something so worth? All others ignorant bliss? I dont know Know what this is This feeling I always have... 'Yes you do...it's emptiness' ~EYE read your words and I~ Eye read your words, I win I feel like I just opened a gift that had no plastic red bow on the box it was brown packing paper dull tiny pieces of tape holding it all together and yet when I rip the paper a white light pure and good shines through the shreds filling me I drop the box and step inside your light just to feel you surround me Thanks goes out to a special friend of mine, addicted_2_country for making me stop and think about my own personal pursuit of happiness with a simple challenge. The results... Freedom I never gave much Of my time back To a place that's been So good to me I never invested Myself into Believing in Feeling patriotically Sweet, you are America The land of the free To me you are more Forgiving of the wretched The poor, the weak, The unappreciative ones And even me This country Gives to me Everyday Fulfills my dreams And all my needs Sadly this is a country Thriving on ugly greed The sun shines Down on A promise land Where promises are Never broken Lost or wished Never left denied Unspoken I can love, Dream, pray Speak as I wish I can write, read And live just Like I do I can just be this I know that I live Somewhere where Dreams can be Caught inside all Of the opportunity And though It's not popular To admit you owe Something to society I never even Thought about Paying back My debt I,m so used to Living free It,s as though The wonder of It all, I now see Hasn't been Appreciated By myself At least not yet I think I've Been given a Challenge Before my time Here is through If I gained complete Freedom Where once There was none I think I would Kiss the ground And try to be Someone better then Wouldn't you? ~Goodbye DarK~ Bird on a wire Crying tears of rust Im ashes to ashes And muddy from dust The wind is no longer A pretty purple breeze Falling and falling Im crawling on Shattered knees Dreaming up nightmares To hate you for flight Dancing on empty stares Im a raw bleeding night Your ink melted mine Day after day And your every single line of absence now admits your not there and I admit readily Im pretending but Im not fine And you dont even Seem to care petals turn to blood stems float on muddy pool Im drowning in nothing Thats all I have left to Swim in, that and my Floating on the surface of Wanting you back Im such a fool Belonging to People that dont ever see You think you got answers But your shrinking A fucked up Reality But dont stop now And come back around Saying you just didnt know That excuse of lost matter Wont fix it And besides You would know if you Ever knew me Guess you didnt And so Im throwing All these stupid Flowers down On this wicked Ground Ripping off my Princess crown And goodbye Im gone ~I saw a sign~ *and it opened up my eyes* Corner of 38th and 40th Sign Says Raffle ---> An arrow pointing To the sky Is someone Gonna fucking raffle off the utmost holy guy? Every morning I say a prayer That the sign is Still there I need to know When I close my Eyes inside despair Jesus might just Really have an ear And every day Its blaring back at me The sign is always There to see But today It was pointing down And I wondered where The devils chance at hell could be found Ive followed that sign With turned up frown And wondered who The clown was That turned it upside Back around Black and white One word Is talking to me I know Ive met absurd Raffle raffle Buy a ticket To be free Screaming screaming Right at me And U-turn left And right back down I pull That wood that would Be From the Ground Im Baffled By this RaFFle sign Speaking to me It is but divine A chance at salvation is free The devil tells me to Bring it home And hang it on my wall Pointing up Come one come weak Come all Through a megaphone I must drone Want to buy a chance at heaven Or go to hell alone? ~I'll Never Be Sorry~ You You are different You are someone I'll never be sorry about I hear a voice That melts all my doubt Im not afraid Because pure Speaks in whispers It doesnt have to shout You You are different You are someone I'll never be sorry about I hear a voice That melts all my doubt Im not afraid Because pure Speaks in whispers It doesnt have to shout
no tomorrow I have seen the face of death The irony of hatred The hand of evil I have watched the world collapse The sky surround A horror of such magnitude That my mind has gone silent In the ugly scream Of an unimaginable sound I have heard the world explode With the urgency of no ugly words The ground sucked in lost realities Surreal the steps of all fallacy What once was alive in trepid hope? Lost in one moment The explosion of the eyes of evils scope The plague of adversity holds us In his hand An unknown victim of the worlds Complacency, can you understand? It never was, what once there was A false sense of existence Has now been sadly born The miseries of the human strife The color of hate is not the color of flesh It surrounds the weak, the lost the forlorn There are no words, nothing more Nothing more... Nothing more... Something less My prayers are with all those affected by the actions that occurred on 09/11/01 ~Pieces of Me~ You used to peek Around the edge of my moon Tiptoeing across my thoughts Never disturbing my flow Now Im dancing With arms spread wide In the cold echo of dark rooms The stars are cracking into pieces Shards of glass in memories eyes Tears seeping into the blood Murderous to my cries You were someone that took Abnormal, punched him Dropping, begging to defy Hands wringing palms Petals smashed into Flesh, naked are my Emotions, I miss it, the Demise is almost bigger Than my ache, how did I fake acceptance, was It just my biggest wish? ~WaR ZoNeS~ Stepping on landmines places where no man goes into my dark soul Fondling all my idiosyncrasies that I never intend to let show. You get under me as you question things and speak of things that no one else ever does. You mentally push me up against a hard wall. Nobody else knows about the weak places and I'd rather believe they are non-existent. Ok so maybe you are right! You win with me. I can't fight the persistence. It can be demanding. You're pushing my brain waves to dance around circles. And I'm always sliding down to the floor after being slammed into harsh reality. Yours are such hard core logical walls I trip always trying not to make a dead fool fall. Can't we just pass the time in idle banter like everyone else? Why must you rip my insides out for your close examination? I know I can walk away. And no better I'd be to run. I realize that your eyes can't see anything If I could only want to push you away. But I am dead in my tracks. Trapped in my stun. Your insistence has moved inside of me. Creeping under the space of my inner doors. A draft that comes to chill me cool. Taking up residency slamming no vacancy signs to my thoughts on the cement floor. Your desire to touch me with understand always bends me but can it kill? When I realize that you Are there in my head in my subconscious. I shouldn't mind although there's things between my lines. And it scares me as I realize that by you they are always detected, saved. Not just simply read. If you're brave enough to dance on my landmines. Then I will overcome my fears and learn to be bold and secure enough to conquer your questions with strength rather than dread. Besides it doesn't quite matter who wins peace in our war. It's more that we can battle and still end up being friends after we close this door.
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